Hello from fucking Australia!
It's SO WARM aand extremely humid - I love it. Cairns is GORGEOUS, today we took a scenic trainride up to Kuranda where I got to hold both a very cute sleepy koala (see my Twitter) and an adorable baby wallabe. After that, we went down by skyrail which was a bit scary but also sooo exciting and awesome. I still can't believe I'M IN FUCKING AUSTRALIA!!! :D Tomorrow, we're going out the the Great Barrier Reef to dive.

Having a totalt blast.
Sydney on thursday.
Probably not coming home ever. ;)

All right, this is it kids, I'm off to Australia!

When I flew to the US, it was my first time long-distance and I was terrified. I was afraid of my feet swelling up, my legs to go stiff, I'd go crazy by boredom.. I get restless just flying to London for fraks sake! But I was actually pleasantly surprised, I had not expected the in-flight entertainment to be as good as it was and it was all right. My feet? Stayed the same size all the way to San Francisco. ;)

I don't think I ever told you about the flights, did I? We were delayed somewhat from Stockholm to London, or rather when we came to London cause of queues at Heathrow. But the scottish captain (his name was Liam) was so nice and funny, it didn't matter. I was all BA CAN DO NO WRONG ♥ haha. And then Captain Liam did the best landing I have ever experienced. I seriously did NOT feel us taking land. I swear to gods! Then I was just lovin' on Heathrow like I tend to do (OMG so happy to be there tomorrow!) and had Saien Soba at Wagamama. I can never finish an entire meal but I loooove that! And they call you Madame everywhere. OH LONDON. ♥

I knew I had time so I was fuckin' around WH Smith, I got me some new earbuds, went to the loo.. and suddenly my phone went off saying it was 15 mins before my flight to San Francisco took off. I almost started crying as I ran toward the nearest flight board and.. yeah. I'd forgotten to change from Swedish time to UK. *facepalm* Retard.. Calmed myself down with a tomato/mozarella croissant at Pret a Manger ♥ and begged a cuppa hot water at Starbucks for my Lemsip (always take it pre-flight, to avoid ear hurtyness). Could not find the Lemsip. Cursed. Took the B transit to my gate. Found the Lemsip. :) Otherwise the flight to San Francisco was pretty eventless, I had the window seat (never again!) and the guy next to me was about my age and after the first meal he told me "I'm gonna take a sleeping pill, so if you need to go, just hit me". I laughed and said "sure". He was out cold after that. Seriously. I'm not gonna hit a stranger on a plane but I pushed and shook and it did NOTHING. Finally I had to climb over him to get out and he still didn't wake up! Madness.

On the flight home after my long, wonderful trip, I was a bit sad to go and cried a little bit as we were about to take off. I had a douchey guy next to me but at least he asked if I was OK. Then came next "yay back to work and stress after 6 wonderful weeks in the US" thing; the On Demand function was busted. FUCK. The screens worked though, but you could only watch whatever they decided to screen. Which was Night at the Museum: Battle of the Smithsonian. Which, actually, wasn't half bad! But it still sucked not being able to choose for yourself. Dinner came, I was still a bit grumpy and the food wasn't that good so I took up my mp3 player and listened to some Cort & Fats instead. Then they showed an episode of Entourage, so I watched that and when I was gonna go back to the podcast, my mp3 player was gone. FUCK. Looked under and around the seat, in my bags.. nothing. Great. So I decided to stretch my legs some and when I came back, the On Demand worked again! Yay! Sat down, watched something, probably Star Trek or something - and instantly found my mp3 player - I'd put it in my flight sock so I wouldn't drop it on the floor. :) Haha.

Bringing Milton this time, he's filled with 12 TV episodes, a bunch of podcasts and lots of music. And the in-flight entertainment looks seriously BRILLIANT, so I think I'll be fine even if it's the longest flight ever. Flying to the US is nothing compared to this, Australia is literally on the other side of the planet from Sweden. Well, New Zeeland is. So not literally then. But pretty fucking close enough!

Holy lord, so tired.
I was up past 2 last night to pack, now heading in to work in a bit to deal with some last minute shit (almost literally) before heading back to fix the place up a bit. IF I have time there will be a Jan picspam.. but probably not. Time is not on my side. Also, probably won't be online much at all down under. Or maybe I will have daily updates, who knows. The problem is that I don't really know if there's wifi at the hotels, the one is Sydney has but it's expensive and I have no idea if the one in Cairns has it or not - they have an "internet kiosk", whatever that is. I suspect that's the only thing they've got since it's a "resort & spa" type deal and.. hm. yeah. We'll see. You'll notice if I'm here or not. :)

Actually still haven't decided yay or nay if I'm gonna bring the netbook.. we'll see.
Packing the hand luggage as I come home today and if there's room, yay.

The travel butterflies are here though. Hello.

I tried it on Twitter but only Mandy replied.
Bah. I know you won't fail me, LJ!

Poll #1520127 What do you think of the new "Big Love" credits?
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New Big Love credits - yay or nay?

Just back from picking up the ex boss' car in the city, I got a bit lost cause the signs, they are not many! That was a good thing about driving in the US, the signs. Not hard to understand. And there was many. Well, plus, GPS. If I'd ever buy a car, I so would get a GPS! Would not have survived without it.

Still feeling a bit under the weather but I hope it's "just" lack of sleep cause it feels like most of the cold is gone *knocks on wood* - good. Gonna make a mini trip to buy kitty litter, cat food and a mid-sized suitcase in a while, and then it's off to Thomas to leave the kitties ;___; sadness. I hate leaving them e3lsewhere, it somehow feels way worse even though it's better cause they have a human around and not just them by themselves.

But right now I'm gonna take said kitties, a cuppa Lemsip ♥ and crawl down in bed and watch a TV show, then sleep some more.

Feeling very drained and confused about work today.
Or not confused, I'm on the clear with work and that makes me confused about.. life. Life choices. And my lack of making them. I divert myself with podcasts and TV shows. Just watched last week's Big Love, WHAAAAAT. HOLY FUCK. The wives are seriously so crazy right now, poor Bill. HAHA. And I love Gay Albie so much. Seriously. I'm sure it's all an evil scheme or something (what with the camera phone) but seriously, all of that plot is so hot and interesting. I couldn't care less about this fucking casino (unless Barb like starts sleeping with the native guy or something), just give me crazy Hick!Bill in the big city and Gay Albie any day. Add some crazy Nicky and stir.

Really should be sleeping right now to mend this cold I have. That, and I need to get up early to get the car I'm gonna borrow from ex boss.

Found a photo I took of the dance floor at the cruise and that guy I danced with was actually in it.
(I'm still amazed he was such a good dancer.)

Home, heading out soon to go see Depeche Mode.
Not really in the mood, so tired after the cruise, but I think it'll be better once I get there.

I have such a craving to go to Portland right now. I don't know why cause I've not planned it, I toyed with the idea of going there for my birthday trip, but decided I wanna go someplace warm instead. But just this last week I've been craving to go something fierce, I think it's extra much Aaron & Scott's fault for showing Evil Dead at the Bagdad, if I wasn't in Australia I'd be crying about missing that! And then came lollobrigida and was all HEY LET'S GO TO CON CON IN MARCH! And I'm like WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH I wanna go to Con Con and be in Portland and :( :( :( Poo. The probably worst part is that I could afford a plane ticket. But I mean, it's never JUST the plane ticket, I still gotta pony up for a hostel, the con, all the extra con expenses (photos, autographs and so on), eating & drinking, and it's not like I'm NOT spending a day at the Lloyd Center if I go to Portland.. so, no. No monies, not going. I'd have to take a loan and I have a very strict don't borrow monies for a trip policy cause it sucks BALLS to pay for something you've already done.

But it still sucks.
Really hope Australia can cure this craving.

Chillin' in the cabin with the minions right now.

Yesterday was pretty amusing, I danced a long time with a cute guy in a mohawk, haha. At least I hope he was cute. He had tats and big, warm hands, that's about what I remember, haha! It was pretty fun, I was like URGH I HATE THESE DRUNK MORONS and went upstairs and just looked at people and Mohawk Guy was downstairs and glanced up at me and I smiled and that went on for a while and then he came up, gave me his and and said "care to dance?". Then he led me downstairs and we danced a long time, he was pretty good and I was.. less so, haha! But it was fun as hell, people told me this morning I had a "come take me" look on my face and that my hair just flew about. :) Then I got bored and left. HAHA. This is so me, this is why I'm single. I easily could have slept with that guy but what he had in dance moves, he lacked in talk and I was like "eh whatever I don't wanna deal with awkwardness" and left. Oh well. Carin saw him this morning and she said he was pretty young. HAHAHA. OH WELL.

Had a blast and a half and got some ego boostin' and that's all good and enough for me right now. Just spent an hour and a half at the spa (gloooooorius) and we're off to get some food soon!

I really should pack & sleep.
So.. tea and 3x02 of Secret Diary if a Call Girl? You betcha!

Today: Work, horse, pack/stress
Tomorrow: Work, cruise, hopefully be drunk as shit
Sunday: Hung over @ sea, spa, buy tax free booze, see Depeche Mode

Sorry about the no updates.
I'm time's bitch this week.. it's been a fucked up week as it is and work is draining, life is stressful, I dig my heels in and refuse to do shit at home and that doesn't end well at all.. I'm pretty low tonight so I'll keep it short before I'll type something really stupid (tend to do that).

Oh boy, just did.
Deleted. I get too emotional and then I pretend I know what people will think by not commenting about it and delete. Delete. Delete.




Whatever. Here's another stupid thing I probably shouldn't write;

I'm feeling so lonely right now.
I know it's bollocks cause I have so many wonderful people constantly giving me love and at times, I don't understand why people even like me. Like, seriously. I don't UNDERSTAND. There is nothing special about me. People are funnier, prettier, cleaner, cleverer, geekier, cuter, more talented.. so Thank You. For whatever it is that makes You still come back and give my mediocre ass love, no matter what form, no matter how much or little, no matter how often or seldom. Fuck knows if I deserve it.
But I love You for caring.

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Good monday. I like it when mondays are good.
Makes you feel less angsty about the rest of the week.

Just started subscribing to PDX Sucks. I usually listen to them on the site but don't subscribe/download on a regular basis, just now and again but I always like what I hear, I love Robert & Sabrina so I don't really know why I haven't started getting them in downloadable form before. Probably cause I already download three Portland podcasts and I'm getting a bit too addicted to them.. but I figured today was time to give them a proper go. It feels good. I don't exactly know where I'm gonna fit in to listen to all the episodes I just downloaded (just six, including the after hours podcast too), including the latest Hamfisted Radio and I should really relisten to friday's Cort & Fatboy cause I don't pay attention listening to them live. Had I, I probably wouldn't have called in to defend Momoa's honor but I just suddenly heard Momoa and Fatty clowning Stargate and I was already in a bad mood so I was like "WTF! *dial*" (I was a bit worried I sounded like really pissed after, but I didn't. Which was good cause I wasn't.) haha
&dork.

(Now I wonder why I can listen to PDX Sucks and do other stuff but not Cort & Fats)
(hmmmmmm)

Anyways. There's that. And the teeveeeee. GOD I LOVE MY TV.
Take my love, take my land but you can't take my TV from me. TV is really my thing. And hearts.
Watching Harper's Island right now and I can't do anything else. Fuck internets, fuck papers, fuck music, CALLUM KEITH RENNIE IS ANGRY AND HOT. Grwar. There's probably something very wrong with me that I find all his more or less disturbed characters really hot.. but then again..


never. gets. old.

LESS. THEN. TWO. WEEKS.

Gave in and ordered a Top 10 Sydney guide book.
We only have 4 days in Sydney and we're gonna have next to zero free time but the more I google I feel like I'm def gonna wanna go back at some point anyways, so.. ;) Plus, map. Plus, see above re: very limited free time. Gonna wanna cram in the most in that time!

I do love and really rec the Eyewitness Travel guides to anyone heading away from home, the big thick ones are so pretty and great and the Top 10 ones are perfect for traveling with. I had one/city (except Portland cause.. they don't have one for Portland) when I was in the US, and I had one for Barcelona and it seems now that I can't travel without 'em. The maps are easy, you get all the info you need.. totally brilliant.

Speaking of Australia, need to get going to pick up that package of skirts that I never got around to get yesterday.

Lovin' on Harper's Island so much but FUCK was it a bad idea to watch like 3 episodes before beddy time. Also finally watched the Kali episodes of Sanctuary, HELLO CALLUM "SWEATY GLISTENING ARMS" BLUE! ♥ I seriously do have to rewatch s2 of Secret Diary of a Call Girl soon. And Dead Like Me. MASON MASON MASON. ♥ I do love him when he's playing a total dick. He's got such a great voice. And LOL PAUL MCGILLION I didn't even recognize him at first even though he had TOTALLY THE SAME HAIR as on SGA.

Oh well. Now what.




OH MY GOD DO YOU KNOW WHAT I DID.
I accidentally knocked over a tray holding some dirty dishes in my living room that I've been too lazy to bring back to the kitchen and the tray was my Hello Kitty tray.. AND IT BROKE.



I WANNA SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FUCKING FACE!!!!!
I am so fucking angry with myself, specially since I was GONNA bring it in earlier.. but didn't. It wasn't expensive or anything but it was my FAVORITE THING I got in the US and.. uhhhhuuuuu. Poo. It broke like around the edges and if I get a strong enough glue I THINK I can glue it together.. but I mean, FUCK. SERIOUSLY. I'm so fucking sick of myself right now.

Really loved that Bones episode. Felt like an old episode somehow, typical Bones structure of it, I love these kind of episodes. Feels like an instant classic. And how ninja was Booth. ♥

And Angela/Hodgins AAAAWWWWWWWWW
Not to mention Brennan/Booth.

OH AND HAHAHA HODGINS MAKING THE BUSH/SHOE COMMENT LOL FOREVAR ♥



Gonna go soak in the tub a while and read SFX and then it's off to pick up the package. I really hope these skirts will be good, otherwise I'm back to square one of what to wear in Australia. Still am, dress wise. I guess there's always the dress I bought in San Diego, but..

In bed, a bit disappointed I woke up this early (10am).
My neck feels really stiff today. I guess it's from the falling off the horse and hitting my head. It didn't feel that bad at the time but I should probably get around to getting a new helmet (after you hit 'em, they're pretty much useless). Sigh. Will have to wait post Australia though cause I'm broke as shit as it is right now. I'll just have to try and not fall off the next 2 weeks.. ;)

Got the first of 2 mailorder packages yesterday and NOTHING fit. I'm sending back everything save a training top, socks and a bracelet. Possibly keeping a west thingie, have to try it on with something under it. Have another mailorder package to pick up today but I'm feeling a bit hesitant since it went so bad with the first one. Oh well.

At least it's sunny outside.

Sometimes I google translate my Swedish blog for a good chuckle, I think I've mentioned it before. My fav translate is when I've written "sjukt bra". In english I'd write like "insanely good" but "sjuk" means "sick" so Google thinks it should translate as "sick good" and that always makes me laugh. Sick good.

I also use "grymt bra" and/or "grymt" a lot and that translates literally as "cruel", however, it's commonly used in a positive way, the meaning of something being "grymt bra" would be like "really good", to be "grym" is not being cruel, but awesome. But then you click the translate button and it says I think I'm cruel, not awesome. Hahahaha.

OK beddy time.
No Bones cause Milton gave up, save that for tomorrow.